Moving~

Helloh~
since blogspot annoys me, I decided to move my blog to ameblo
(haters gonna hate) loooooool
http://ameblo.jp/pime-pim/
here you goooooo fuckers

                                               Love: Pime

Driving and piercing

Today I had my first driving lesson

it was so much fun !! omg !!

next one is next weeks tuesday

the teaches said I was awesome (//´ω｀//)

and well, after that I went to city centre to buy ink into my printer
I got what I needed and this is what I decided to print today:

I have feeling my ink will end soon again (laughs)
well, of course when I was at the city, I decided to take a little peek in "underground" shop and go say hi to Jani
they had just got lots of new stuff and I asked for my hair colours, they only had neon blue at the moment, I need to wait for flamingo pink and  turquoise (´Д` )
pffhhh any way~ next thing ... "umm... can you pierce my ear?"
"sure"
tadaaaa:

the tragus one ^^
it's kinda annoying at the first (laughs) but I'm sure I'll get used to it~

something else?
mmm.... I guess not? x_x

                                                                                 Love: Pime

#458

I started driving school yesterday (6.8.)
and I'll already drive car for the first time on thursday x_x
someone is going to get hurt (laughs)

                                                    Love: Pime

25.-26.7. cottage~

So yesss I felt soooo good at our summer cottage ;_;

I can't even remember time I felt so relaxed and happy ;_; ♥

the weather was on my side, it was warm and calm summer weather (laughs)

and the water was warm also so I finally threw away my winter coat (=means that I swam for the first time this summer)

and I got to sleep in the new building

aww yeeaaah Ψ(｀▽´)Ψ

all though, I could have slept in "my room" in the old building, but new building is better Ψ(｀▽´)Ψ

out pet seagulls Sherlok and wad?son came to beg for food right away (laughs)
(it's '-lok' because 'seagull' is 'lokki' in finnish... so yeah)
we have been feeding them for like.... 5 years now?? and they are there always!! (laughs)
but it's okay, they are cute xDD

I also said hello to Elli ;_; ♥
R.I.P. sis~ ♥

later we went fishing and got 4 big perch (okay one is a bit smaller, but they were big!)

just after we got back from the fishing trip, it started raining~ ♥

I had peacefull good night of sleep ♥ the rain helped in that ♥
+ I got eaten my mosquitos pretty badly (laughs)
I have 28 mosquito bites in me xDD

but in the morning before heading back to city and home, I fed Sher
I wonder where wad?son was.... maybe they have kids somewhere

oh yes, Sherlok and wad?son are couple, we know this because they had a kid one year and they brought it to us with them to feed (laughs)

I guess I don't have anything else, do I ??
dunno...

                                                                                 Love: Pime

#455

I seem to have a good day today ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

lots of new looks and shit

anyway, I got my EMP's package yesterday and I'm happy because of that too ^^

I love my new Ankh so much (｡♥‿♥｡)
and my new pentagram ring and jeans ^^

+ I will do my nails today!
I promised myself I'll do them yesterday but I didn't (laughs)

I'll just need to find nice colour
maybe red after a long time?

I'll be leaving to our summer cottage tomorrow, finally
I love that place so much T_T ♥
and I'll be back on thursday or friday (?)
that part I didn't kinda understand (laughs)
I need to pack (´ω｀)

random picture of Verkku in the end (laughs)

what? (laughs)
he's cute, deal with it

                                                                Love: Pime

#454

It's my nameday, bitches! (laughs)
I got roses from my parents ^^

okay, from mom
she came to my room when I was sleeping and she was like:
"here's roses for you and happy nameday"
me: "mmmm~ congrats"
mom: "when do you want to go shopping?"
me: "mmm~ dunno, don't care"
mom: "okay, I'll go, get up at some time"
me: "mmm"

it's normal for me to say 'congrats' when I'm not interested or I don't listen what someone says to me (laughs)
but I say is in finnish = 'onnee'
I usually say it when my parents say something to me (pfffh)

I'm addicted to diablo 2 again
ramdon info (laughs)
okay yeah, I'll go to drink coffee and eat something

                                                          Love: Pime

Day full of thunder

So yes, 17.7. was epic day !!
I loved it... like you might already know (that I love thunder)
I wake up at 1-2pm and my parents already had left to out summer cottage
right about when I get comfortable online I hear the first noises of the thunder
→ gets closer
→ closer
→ "hmm, I'll go outside to take a look" :

It came right over our house and it was okay~
7½ out of 10
and another storm came right after it, it was same 7½ to it also (laughs)
I kinda like to count those two as a same cloud

Then I open my laptop again and but all the electricity stuff on, thinking that it's all over now
but another lovely cloud appears!!
it was beautiful dfhdjkfhkjdv and so dark I was jumping outside like "omg omg it's so jhjkfghkd" :

I gave it 8 out of 10

Then it goes away way (laughs)
I can't even restart everything again when, yet again, another storm comes! (~￣▽￣)~
this was was the loudest and biggest:

I could feel the ground shake but jhvfxjfdhsjkhfvfd it was awesome !
best one this summer, so far
8½ out of 10

after 6-7 hours of thunder
everything got silent but it kept raining and raining, it still does
but the sun shined through the rain clouds as it set, creating a rainbow ♪(´ε｀ )

Even my mom sent me this picture from our summer cottage:

Saying: "after thunder"

I'm just waiting that it will start to thunder now, at night, also (laughs)
okay, maybe not... too cold after all the thunder

I spend the whole day outside in the rain and thunder (laughs)
and now it's time to sleep
Good night! (( _ _ ))..zzzZZ

                                                                 Love: Pime

Good morning~ (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ

I'm getting ready to go, once again~
(~￣▽￣)~

Today I'm feeling a bit better
maybe it's that I know I'll get away from here for a moment (laughs)
all I'm concern about at the moment is that I change to the right train at Pieksämäki and that I have everything I need... I hope so... I really do

Turku here I come!
see you some day~ (*´3`)ノ~♥

                                                            Love: Pime

#451

Soooo~
I'll leave tomorrow morning and I'm fucking nervous already
I do have a beer, but it's not helping !!
puuhhh... I need to go to sleep after it

I shall derp here also:

I'm such a derp (laughs)

btw, my parents still haven't noticed I have nipple piercing
even if I have black ring in it now
and I was wearing that white top today and it shined through it, but they didn't say anything!!
it's good of course... it would be very awkward if they saw it (laughs)

just little post here
see you~
(in the morning?)

                                                         Love: Pime

#450

Heyh~

I'm going to Turku this week (´ω｀)

which is good, because I haven't been in the best mood for like, a week now?

I need some vacation from myself (laughs)

and I'll be there for one week~

and today I'm going shopping to city centre

I hope I'll finally find that ring to my nipple piercing!

but of course, like always, it's raining!

fucking shit! it's always raining when I'm going to city centre!

WHY~~~~~~!? щ(ಥДಥщ)

and tomorrow is time to dye my hair again
then I'll leave on 4th day (´ω｀)
we'll see if I'll come  online while I'm there
few persons got mad at me because I won't be rp'ing with them (laughs)
welllllll sorryyyy!

anyway, I'll go to eat something now
see you! (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ

                                                                                Love: Pime

Some fangirling xD

JHJDLGHZJLDBGZSDBZSD HOME SWEET HOME
BUT DJSLBGVXS I CAN’T
DSBKGDGKJGVSBHJLS IT WAS AWESOME

I HUGGED THEM ALL (but not rui x_x there wasn’t chance to do that… he never came there to be hugged, at least I didn’t see him)
AND JIN CARESSED MY CHEEK AFTER THE HUG AND LOOKED ME WITH “LET’S FUCK” LOOK IN HIS FACE jdhgljgdl THAT GRIN/SMILE HE GAVE ME JSHBSFJLGHSLDFJ
Manabu was like “kiitos, kiitos” and hugged me warmly
and I ran in Kazuki’s arms (laughs) he was like “okay!” and hugged me tight, rocking me, chuckling and pat my head djhsgjlfglfsk
and Byou kissed the photo set pack and hugged me tight dhksgkhdgkd
I JUST CAAAAAAAAN’T

AND ALL THAT FANSERVISE KFBHJKFLJBHLXDFJ

+ when we were in the line Rui walked by us with staff member who was filming xDD
and during the show Rui grabbed my hand dnjbsgljgnbdjxlf

but hugging Jin and Kazuki was the best thing what has ever happened to me ;_;
seriously
the best thing in my whole life

Kazuki is just so fucking epic person okay? OKAY!

but all in all AWESOME GIG !!
THANKS BOYS !!

so much awesome shit happened but fjhgjflsgsd I can't write jsgdgsdlojk now kfhgsfhiglo
I'm so hyper & happy & my whole body aches (laughs)

this all made my life

best shit ever

                                                                     Love: Pime

#448 here I come!

HELSINKI CALLS !!

I'll be back on sunday !!

SEE YOU !!

                                                               Love: Pime

#447 Helsinki calls tomorrow!

So yes!, SCREW gig tomorrow
I need to pack my stuff todayyyyyyy
and I don't even know what to wear tomorrow jhnflgsfgs FUUUUU

I'm panicking !! like always in moment like this !!
I always think that the worst will happen
I sit or run in circles like "what if this and what if that..."

Hopefully I will meet all the awesome people I want to meet (*´3`)ノ~♥
meet all the tumblr users !! (laughs)

My day started well, laptop open → music on → sit here → mom brings breakfast and coffee
nice~

christmas coffee mug (laughs)

and why am I listening to -OZ- !? T_T
I miss them !!
come back to Finland babiessss~

Cry for you... Colors for you...
♪(´ε｀ )


                                                                                  Love: Pime

#446

Morning people !!
Did you watch Venus pass the sun?
Well I did !! And I'm fucking happy I saw it!!

I just love stuff like that, okay? okayyyy~
We won't see it again in next 100 years
it was small but still awesome lhxfghlxghdkhsl
I'm so hyper even if I haven't slept at all again (laughs)
it was worth it

And I dyed my hair
it's violet & pink now

I guess I don't have anything else to say...
But that these world end dreams I'm having almost every night, are bothering me >_<
It's not nice to watch the sun explode and say "I love you all" to your family members just in time before you burn
And it sounds horrible also
but it looks kinda cool but also scary at the same time
It's almost the same every night jhcfgjhxsgdgkhskghk
I don't get this

                                                                                          Love: Pime

#445

おはよう！♪(´ε｀ )

I just came from a walk with Jimi
yep, I'm up at 7am (laughs)
I need to "babysit" my father while mother is at work
But the truth is that I haven't slept at all over night
and I'm not even tired! AT ALL
I've been up for...16 hours now (not even much pffhh)

I took that pic while I was out with Jimi moment ago

The water is high this summer, I almost wasn't able to walk the path x_x

But it's awesome weather outside

So warm and everything is slowly turning green

But anyway~~

Father is recovering well ^^

He doesn't even need that much painkillers anymore

                                                                                Love: Pime

;_;

Father is recovering fast
He has been walking and got off from most "machine help"
He might get home soon ;_;
Maybe tomorrow or so~

                                                          Love: Pime

I woke up to a nightmare

I really hoped this was a bad dream which I can wake from,
but it seems it's not

Yesterday evening, my father was in car accident with a train
The sun shined to his eyes so he didn't see the train coming
and he has bad hearing so he didn't hear it either

He's in hospital and alive but he has broken ribs and nose, hip fractures and I'm not sure what else

My mother just left to the hospital again,
but I can't go there... I just can't

I don't know what to do

I still don't believe this

I don't understand

How

Why


I don't feel like talking to any of my family members and I must look horrible to their eyes,
I hope they don't think I don't care or something
I do care! a lot!
I just don't know what to do
or how to act...
My eyes are swollen and I drop everything, bump into walls
I’m still in fucking shock…

I still hope I'll wake up soon and this was just a horrible nightmare

And I really, really, really hope my father will get well and survive

                                                                   Love: Pime

plaapa plaapa plaa plaa

I went to shower and then I saw that we had this !!!

I went all djsbjkfgsbjfvbgslfgs

seriously I love this shit !!!

my hair smells like heaven now !!

I was like: //sniff sniff// I’m in heaven !!!

seriously… this means so much to me, it has so  many memories and meaning to me

one hair shampoo can change my whole day

//le keeps sniffing my hair//

I also got this thick curtain
it will block the midnight sun light to get to my room
so I can sleep in darkness even in summer (laughs)

I don't remember if I have other stuff to tell about...

Can't remember (laughs)

And my next years spring looks pink
Vika is coming to Finland...
(I fucking hope it will happen because I fucking love this girls from the bottom of my human heart)
...and she said he wants to see cute me even if she has to dress me in pink...
....
......
I have to start to run... so I'll be able to run away from her (laughs)

                                                          Love: Pime

おねがい！！

死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、
死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ、死ぬ！！

Normal, normal... for me

I'm nervous...

Oh my demon gods... (laughs)
I didn't even sleep last night~~
Yeah, this is normal to me to get fucking nervous about meeting people or going somewhere
it's even worse if I'm going somewhere !!

And what have I been doing today ??
Well, first I watches discovery science with my mother and we had interesting conversation of the universe and all the things in it and how was it born and stuff like that
I am/was smarter than her >xDD MWAAHAHAHAHAAA !!
Bitch please, I went to space/astronomy course when I was at high school and got number 10+
...Then I cleaned the house a bit
then yelled at my parents what is ok to do and what isn't
cleaned a bit more
yelled more
played with Jimi
cleaned
yelled
cleaned
and now my room is kinda clean !!!

Random Ossi OD there xDDD
....
....

ookkaaayyy~~ and let's continue
with what???
ok... I can't remember what I wanted to write but yeah...
Noora is coming hereeee~~~~~~

                                                                   Love: Pime

FFFUUUUU~~

that moment when you wake up and decide to open the curtains and it's sunny outside,
"I'M FUCKING BLIND !!! DJGHJKGD"

but I can see the blue sky !!!
I can't remember when was the last time I saw the blue sky x_x
and sunny weather in winter means it's fucking cold outside... hmm...
-23C at the moment....
I love you too !! (╹◡╹)凸
and it was something like -30C at night -_-

sunny weather to me means also that I have a headache (╹◡╹)凸
I love this shit so much !!!

I don't...

I have stuff to post about last week, but guess what
I'm lazy to take pictures
hohohohohohoo
but I wasn't so lazy to take that pic in this post few minutes ago ??
.......

I don't understand myself (laughs)

maybe I will post about it later today (??)

P.S.
             stay warm !!

                                                 Love: Pime

lost

so… we had to take off those 2 microdermals… ;_;
but when the skin heals we’ll put them back ^^
(one will move it’s place because the skins movement didn’t let it heal, so it will come on my chest)
(and the one on my neck reacted like that because it was inflamed and pushed itself up)
but healing might take some time -_-
but I’m happy that I can get them back !!! *—*

                                                 Love: Pime

Hard decisions & insomnia

Hello~~
I didn’t sleep at all
I have no idea why I can't sleep these days ;_;
I'm fucking tired but I can't sleep
if I sleep, I sleep for 1-3 hours and wake up without getting back to sleep ;_;
I - want - to - sleep !!

and I decided that if there isn’t a way to save 2 of my microdermals, I’ll take off all 4 of them
they would look stupid without those 2….
so we’ll see is I’ll lose all of them today ;_;

                                                      Love: Pime

new look

maybe it's a bit boring...
but anyway !!
it's something

                                  Love: Pime

aaaahhh... still drawing~~

working on my drawing and well.... is doesn't look so good -_-
how long have I been drawing this ??
2-3 days...

I love that book and that pic so I want to try to draw it ^^
and yes, I'm lazy and draw on my bed (laughs)
don't worry, I have that lovely yellow drawing chassis under the drawing~~
oops... there's my hand in that pic (laughs)
and you can't see the drawing well yet x_x
it's just the start x_x
I hope it will turn out ok...

And another microdermal is growing out now ;_;
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
2 of them have healed perfectly and are fine, but  2 of them aren't x_x

                                                                        Love: Pime

plaah plaah 490257

it seems that we're going to Screw's gig with a nice group of people ^^
can't wait~~

and I went to city centre today but of course Jani wasn't at work
dcjkfhjkdgsgsds

I don't have much to say again
but yeah....
same shit continues~~

dot

                                                                 Love: Pime

Shadow’s flower (I tried to translate it with my friend xDD )

♫♪ I go forward there

where the world

is dark and

inconsolable

in backyards where no one has

been playing in ages

I carry misery in my back,

a memory of you in my heart

and that memory drags

deeper into the shadows

if there wouldn’t be so dark night in here,

I guess I never could

remember your wonderfulness, Shadow’s flower

and if

days were too long and wide

between them I couldn’t experience the beauty of *dream

world kills everything beautiful

but I won’t give you to it

I keep you in secret

I baptized you as ‘Shadow’s flower’

A soldier can love

his queen forever

but I guess it will never go the other way round

if there wouldn’t be so dark night in here,

I guess I never could

remember your wonderfulness, Shadow’s flower

and if

days were too long and wide

between them I couldn’t experience the beauty of *dream♪♫

*(while sleeping)

Varjonkukka

Minä kuljen siellä
missä maailma
on pimeä ja
lohduton.

Takapihoilla, joissa kukaan ei
ole leikkinut aikoihin.
Surkeutta kannan selässäni,
sydämessäni muistoa sinusta
ja se muisto vetää
syvemmälle varjoihin.

Jos ei niin pimeä yö täällä ois,
en kai koskaan vois
muistaa ihanuuttasi Varjonkukka.
Ja jos
päivät olis liian pitkät ja leveät
ei niiden välissä
voisi kokea unen kauneutta.

Maailma tappaa kaiken kauniin,
mutta sinua en sille anna.
Pidän salassa sinut,
Varjonkukaksi kastoin.
Sotamies voi rakastaa
kuningatartaan ikuisesti
vaan koskaan ei kai käy päinvastoin.

Jos ei niin pimeä yö täällä ois,
en kai koskaan vois
muistaa ihanuuttasi Varjonkukka.
Ja jos
päivät olis liian pitkät ja leveät
ei niiden välissä
voisi kokea unen kauneutta.

Jos ei niin pimeä yö täällä ois,
en kai koskaan vois
muistaa ihanuuttasi Varjonkukka.
Ja jos
päivät olis liian pitkät ja leveät
ei niiden välissä
voisi kokea unen kauneutta.

just...

jdkhgsjghjsflghlsfhdgehtegthde
one of my microdermals hates me
I'm going to city centre tomorrow so I can show it to Jani
(sighs)
I don't want to lose it ;_;
I love all my piercings
dot

                                                  Love: Pime

baaaar

♫♪Careful what you’re feeling on the inside
You should try to remember,
the good times and the high life
Are you feeling alright?♪♫

------
so so so~~
I had fucking fun evening/night again
I came home few hours ago ^^

I found new drink I love !! xDD
it's called 'strawberry orgasm' (laughs)
I know the name is epic and everything, but it really is worth of its name !!
it's soooooo good~~
it's a bit like a strawberry milkshake with alcohol... or should I say it is a milkshake ??
I'm not sure...
after my sister ordered it, and actually bought it to me, I said "I have to tweet about this !!"
and Ville said " yeah tweet, 'I just got orgasm, my sister gave it to me' "
and I was like "EEEEEEEWWWWWWWW NOOO" (laughs)
gods... xDDD

and and and another funny thing was that one man from the table behind us was leaving with his friends and turned to us giving a untouched drink saying "we're leaving now and we got this one extra drink accidentally... it's completely untouched"
we took it and then he patted my back and said "hey don't be so serious all the time"
I laughed and he said "yes! be like that!"
who is he to tell me I'm serious all the time ???!!! (laughs) any way...

I had fucking much fun again xDD
thanks everyone !!!

                                                                              Love: Pime

lol nope

didn't I say that I'll try to be happier this year ??
I feel bad now right from the start...
I feel like there is nothing for me in this society
-_-
I can't find any job I would be good at or what I would like to do
and I don't want to study anything so high school and stuff like that are out !!
so I would have to find a good vocational school
but guess what...
I can't find anything

let me just crawl to the corner and die there

                                                               Love: Pime